I'm gonna die from all the feelings i'm having now~ Oh gosh... (I'M TERRIBLY SORRY IF I DIDN'T MENTION UR NAME.. CAUSE THERE'S JUST TOO MANY PPL TO SAY!)
Fear: 1) I'm bad in languages, be it English or Chinese. Ha.. Wonder how should i communicate with the guests and my collegues.
2) Wonder can i adapt to the weather and food... I'm damn weak. I can't stand coldness! Shit...
3) Wonder how's work? How will my supervisors and colleagues treat me? Wish nobody will bully me.. Hope i won't get involved in any office politics.
Sad: 1) Leaving my family, relatives and friends! Gonna miss them like mad... Oh God.. Please take care of them.. 2) Mummy!!! or Meeeeeee!!!! Nobody gonna cook for me. Nobody gonna wash my clothes for me. Nobody gonna nag at me to eat more fruits that she cut up for me. Nobody gonna kill cockroach for me. Nobody gonna do any what-mother-do-for-their-kids for me. Thank you mummy! Thanks! Xie xie! I LOVE YOU!
3) My sister!!! I can't snatch computer with her anymore just because i'm lazy to wait for the laptop to switch on. So i'll always sit on her lap to use the com. As everyone knows, i'm extremely forgetful, so i have many post-it pasted around my house, and i can't get to see the stupid comments that my sister will write beside what i wrote.. So damn funny` I can't act EXTREMELY spastic anymore. In this world, only my sis saw that side of me. What u ppl saw is only like 10% of it. LOL. Thanks Jie~ The WenDick and J-Ass sisters. What you love to call me: Stupid. Anus. Bitch. Lousy. Pig. Get lost~>> Ur new word. So irritating! HRMP! I HATE YOU. (But i love u more.)
What i love to call you: JIE!!!!!!! (Yes. Scream.) Oie Doodie. Fi-Teh~!!!! (HAHA!) Ass-Hole. Idiot.
I still love you. No matter how many times u call me "Stupid." I thank God for giving me a great mother and a wonderful sis like u both. Both of you are my world. My soul. My life.
3) Daddy. Put it simply, I'll love you no matter what.
4) Closest friends!!! Hui Ting............ My bestest best friend. I wanna thank you for being there all the time. I remembered once, when i had lots and lots of problems.. I felt that life was meaningless. And that scare the hell out of you. LOL. Cause a person like me can think that life is not worth living. So not me rite?? Thanks for being there, if not i might be buried under ground. Ha. U get what i mean rite? Next, I wanna thank you for being my closest friend that i can share my deepest secrets with, like you know.... whenever i'm with someone.. and what we done... how i felt.. what i like or not what i like... blah blah blah.. oh gosh. I seriously can predict that i'll share with you what's my favourite sex position with my husband. HAHA! And i demand u to share too! LOL~ Kidding! Thanks Ting. I can say 100 million times "Thanks" and it seemed that it's never enough. Wah. Now u can fight with my mum and sis for the word, "Thanks".
I LOVE TO ACT SPASTIC! AND I FOUND A GREAT PARTNER!!!WHOO HOO! Wahaha! Freaking Ugly. Lol. But i like!
Rachel... Thanks for being my bestie for fun and maddness as well. You are very much appreciated as my darling cutie friend! So much memories flooded my mind when i think of our past. Be it trival conflicts - very childish one.... Be it happy days - Skate-boarding! LOL. Can't believe we were once sooOO into baggy clothes.. Stressful days - Helping each other in our artwork... I LOVE YA~!!
Hui Ying.. Thanks for being there. We can chat about our life. Our family and stuff. Thanks for trying to boost up my confidence. Telling me that i should be as confident as i am when i'm on the dance floor.. Telling me that true love does exist if i believe in it.. I try to ok... I love ya!
Jemmie. Well.. Not sure if you'll read this.. Cause i think we really drifted.. Sad but true. I miss you girl. Thanks for all the lovely memories that you added into my life.. I will still remember the past when we went out together and chatted like nobody's business. I love ya!
SEC3: US AT THE FRONT ROW! Sitting together! 4 of us! WHOO HOO!
Mig. We drifted as well.. But i'll never ever forget those times that we shared. The memories of our wonder pill factory... Our Hougang chalet... Our 100 kids and the 100 million dollar inheritence.. Our days studying in library, starbucks. (I helped you in ur projects! U cheater! ha. kidding) Our days with Linda.. K-STER AND K-BOX~!! Our badminton game... Hope you won't forget the past. CHAN CHEOW JOO... though you always tease me with whatever opportunity u get.. i won't get angry.. cause i just enjoy bullying you as well... Liza. Thanks for being my bestest group mate ever! Love ya lots! Thanks for all the advice on love. LOL. Love talking to you. LCM- thanks for encouraging me to study. Thanks for teaching me whenever i have a question. Lastly, Thanks for all your "funny" jokes. My 2 favourite cousins and my favourite aunt! Thanks Jiu-Mu(what i call her) for being there for me... talking to me like i'm an adult. Telling me whatever things i need to know about life. I really appreciated it. I hope you'll be always happy! I love you! Sam, Gina, both of you have grown up. We are no longer as close... But when we finally do get to meet.. I'm so happy that you both are still like a kid who love to hug and i love to be the big sister to you both. Please please PLEASE study hard and don't play so much computer games! ESPECIALLY THOSE ONLINE GAMES! OH MY GOD. YOU BOTH ARE TOTALLY MAD. AND YA! NO MORE COMIC BOOKS! SAM: Your O levels is coming! Gina: Your PSLE is coming! STUDY!!!!!! AND I LOVE YOU BOTH VERY MUCH! LOVE YA TOO FANNY MY LOVELY AUNT!
A guy but i can't mention his name: Hmm. doubt he'll read this but still gonna say thanks for adding memories and at least i can gain some experiences in this "relationship".
(My beijing mates is not mentioned not because u are not my love! But because we are going together! WHEEEEEE!!!!!~~~!!!!~~!!!)
Excitment: 1) How Beijing looked like? 2) How's the people there? Are they as friendly as my China friends at work and in school, my Beijing aunt and her family? 3) How's life there?!!!?!?!??!?!??!?!??!?!!??!?!??!?!?!?!?!
ARG~
I feel so emotional now. LOL. Shit. I'm not a weakling, am i? Damn it. * * * * *
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Too bad there's no video of me killing the cockroach.
WELCOME to my Group's Chalet on 30/8/2006!!!
(Ha. Sorry. That's not really welcoming.)
EEE. We look like some ah-lian. Ha.
POSE OF THE DAY
Colleen directed all the pose! HAHA! So~ Never judge a book by its cover.
Yummy Food of the day!
Prawns!
CHOCOLATE fondue!
YUMMY YUM! It's really really REALLY VERY NICE!!!!
COCKROACH CATHCER OF THE DAY!! YI WEI!!!
LET'S CLAP!!!!!! *THUNDEROUS APPLAUSE*
My "achievement" of the day - Killing a cockroach. Oh GOD.. I felt like a sinner..
I mean... nobody is gonna help us kill it when we're in China... So i plucked up the courage and killed it.. Not like now.. I scream and shout for help, and my mother will come to my rescue..
But it won't happen when we're in our hostel.. So~ I aimed at it with my one of slipper, when i know it's squashed under it, My natural reflex was to scream and jump on the bed.. OH GOSH. Liked it did help... Duh.. We all screamed when i screamed then i started tearing, my friends was laughing and clapping.. LOL. Damn dramatic... Why didn't the chalet provide insecticide?! ARG~
Fortunately, I'm going to church soon. Better pray for forgiveness. In my heart, i kept saying sorry to the God and the cockroach.. Sorry that i killed a life. But what can i do.. I mean.. I already murdered it... Damn it. I cried because of a stupid cockroach. But i have no choice.. Colleen need to use the toilet urgently and nobody dare kill it. Then i need to "train" my courage.
Shit. Hey My Beijing Mates!!! All of you better go learn how to kill cockroach. I don't care! I am not going to be the next Yi Wei-the cockroach-buster!
Yes.. We're dancing with umbrellas.
*Shouting* You should seriously watch and hear how colleen shout like a cat. So damn cute!
Ha! Yi Wei asked all of us to end the video. YuP, we ended with a 'Act cute' pose. LOL.
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Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Suddenly recalled what one of my friend, Liza, said...
LOVE is like a kite. The string will snap if you pull it too hard. The kite will fly away if you let go too much.
Well said. I totally agree.
To me, Love is like a game for 2. * * * * *
Saturday, August 26, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUFIE!!!
Went out with Shu Fen, Colleen and Linda to celebrate Shu Fen's birthday... Had hell lots of fun.. Only have a pic, cos i don't want colleen to spend too much time sending it to me.. I know she's doing something damn sweet and nice for Joel.. Hai.. I looked horrible there.. My arm looked bigger than my head. OH MY GOD. ARG!!!!! I'm still not losing weight. Damn it. Well, gotta wait for colleen to give me the rest of the photos then.. I'll upload when i get it.. Now left Destination Planning and Development (DPD) paper to finish~ and.. HOORAY! Time to celebrate~~ But that also mean that my time in Singapore is shorten as well. Arg~ Mixed emotions. Happy. Excited. Sad. Wonder how life in China would be.... Hmmm. * * * * *
Thursday, August 24, 2006
I'M SO BORED!!!
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006
(Click on the pics if it's too small.) - Just realised it only works for some.
I was bored. So i looked through some old photos.. Oh God.. So much have changed... TIME FILES!!! It really felt like everything happened yesterday.. But it had been years~ Decided to post it here. So if i miss my friends or if i want to look back at the good-old-days, when i'm in China.. I can see photos through here... Hai`
I love my sis!! She looked like my younger sis in this pic.. lol. Or maybe to me only..
We used to hang out very often... but not anymore.. Sad. I miss you, Jemmie. Hai. At least i still get to see Rach and Hy. Hai... Have bf already like that.. Ha! Kidding~
Anyway. Wanna say Thanks for celebrating my birthday with me... Oh ya... My Poly year 1 class mates too! But too bad, LINDA LOST ALL THE PHOTOS! ARG! LOL.
This was taken not long before i entered poly...
We both changed quite a bit after poly life. Lol. Love this pic cos it looked like some make over pic. Lol. Maybe only to me... Ha~
I will miss you HUI TING. A LOT. A LOT. HELL LOTS!!!!!! *SOB
This was taken LONG LONG AGO!!! The hole in between my teeth is so damn obvious.. Ha. Stupid Linda.. always laugh at my braces (hanger)! HRMP.
Went out with ShuFen and Linda. Ha. Look at our hair style. So funny. Especially Linda! HAHAHAHA. My turn to laugh at u back. *Evil*
The so-bimbo-days...
I miss long hair! I must keep it! Please don't allow me to cut! ARG~ I can't help it!!!
Kinda miss the past.. Me and mig used to be so so soOOOOoooooOO close. Ha.. Our so called 100 kids and the million-dollar inheritence is all gone with time.. haha.. Things really changed huh..
I MISS SO MUCH THINGS AND PPL.. ARH~~ I WANNA SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS`!!!!!
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Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Went out with my darlings, Rach and HY. I miss Jemmie. =(
Go collect DPD case study then go town meet them. I really don't understand why can't the notes be sent online... Weird.
Took some pics again! YippiE~
I love this pic as much as i love colourful stuff!
This pic is spoilt by the stupid straw that stood right in the middle of my chest. Damn.
Can u see the pimple right on my face?! Must be the exam stress!!! Bloody hell~ So tempted to scold the 4 letter word. Which i don't, unless i'm really pist. And yes. I am now. F**K. Stupid. Think i not ugly enough ar. TMD. * * * * *
Fallin'
I keep on falling in and out of love with you Sometimes I love you Sometimes you make me blue Sometimes I feel good At times I feel used
Loving you, darling Makes me so confused
I keep on falling in and out of love with you
I never loved someone the way that I love you Oh,oh I never felt this way
How do you give me so much pleasure And cause me so much pain
I've taken more than would a fool
I start falling back in love with you
I keep on falling in and out of love with you
-Alicia Keys
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Sunday, August 20, 2006
Witnesses said Israeli missiles destroyed a bridge during the raid - the first such air strike since the ceasefire began.
WHY WHY WHY?!?!!??!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!?!!
I thought it all ended?! ARG~
Allow me to skip topic again.
LCM is always so hardworking! Why can't guys who liked me have good qualities like him?!
He is special and humourous in his own unique charming ways... High in intelligence... Extremely responsible... So confident.. You should see how he speak during presentation... So attractive. I want to marry a guy like him!!! I said marry a guy similar to him. But not him. Ha (But i wouldn't mind if he ask! I'M KIDDING! SERIOUSLY.)
Ha... I'm like promoting him. Yes! To myself! Please don't snatch! HAHA! Just kidding!LOL!!!!
He might kill me after reading. Ha! Maybe not~ I shall tell him. Hee!
Well... I'm still doing my art.. I did a draft collage by putting all the weird pics together, but it really look quite... erm... quite..... Not right. Hmmm.
Hai... Here's our last day spending time together..... So sad. I love Temasek Poly! I love HTM! I love my group! AWWW!!! I don't want to leave!
You know... What the director said that day about us missing our mother's home-cook food. IT'S JUST SO TRUE!!!
I've been eating a lot A LOT of my mummy's cooking. Oh God...
Damn. I must dance longer and do more skipping later!
BYE! * * * * *
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Well, on my previous post i talked 'bout failure in LOVE. Lol. Seemed that there are others who suffered a worse fate than mine.
Hmmm... Would you rather be with someone who loves you, but doesn't shower you with any loveat all. In the sense of, both of you don't hold hands, don't hug, don't kiss, don't do anything thing that couple do!!! Oh my God~ What kind of relationship is that...?! It really happened to someone..
Or would you rather have someone who doesn't really love you (at all), but you can still enjoy some cuddles and kisses?
Oh man!!! This is so confusing!!!
Anyway, I've decided not to discriminate the word 'sexy' used on me. I don't think i'll ever become pretty so i've decided to change my mindset` And that inspired me to do some art again.
Hmm.. but now exams are coming.. Guess it'll take me some time to do.. When everything is done. I'll post it again.
I came up with a 'SEXY' theme.. Honestly. I'm still not very used to that word.. Sound so sexual. Ewww. I think i need some time to to get used to it.
As you know, i can't draw. I'll give u a sneak-peep~
I repeat. It's ART. Not porn. Thank you. (Nah. It can't be porn since my boobs ain't showing out. HA!)
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Love is blind. I often say.
Ha. Linda, Shu Fen and i was having a joint conversation on MSN and we started talking bout relationships. So i'm inspired to post something about it.
Everything started sweetly, so even if it ends, i want to end it sweetly.
I used to like a guy who walked so fast, i have to quicken my pace to follow close. One day, I started having stitch and was having difficulty walking fast. So i slowed down but he continued walking and i just followed behind quietly. He used to be so sweet and doting.. Even sent me home when i was sick. I guess there's no point liking him. Feelings faded. In the end, i wished him all the best in finding the 'Queen of his heart'.
I used to like a guy who couldn't make up his mind 'bout who to be with. Feelings weren't strong enough. But i hold on to it, hoping that one day he'll make up his mind. He used to be so sweet as well.. Reminding me to take my anti-swelling pills due to my braces.. But it just wasn't meant to be. In the end, i wished him all the best in finding the 'Girl of his dreams'.
Well, you can buy me all the diamonds in the world, but i don't give a damn to it. It's the small gestures that meant the most to me.
Seemed that i always liked the wrong guy.. But i'm sure God had made his plans for me. I was talking about it with my friends today. Do you believe fate lies in your hands? Or God control it?
Personally, I believe that God made choices for us to choose. (For most cases.) It's only up to us on how we want to get the final result. Life is like writing a book, God is the author and we're the 'Assistant author', telling him which plot(choice) we prefer.
Maybe all these happened to me because God wanted it this way. Either he want me to meet 'The-One' or he wanted me to be single forever.. Ha. I'm so damn skeptical about true love now. Really. Can someone answer me. Does it really exist??!! Damn. I'm asking this often.
My crush stood beside me that day (Yippie!) and i pretended i didn't see him at all. I was so shy! (Surprisingly.) I always look away then steal a few glance at him, and will only say hi or smile, when he initiated it.. In the end, i initiated... (I won't tell you what i did, in case you know who he is.) I just want everything to end nicely~
=)
Ok. I don't know what else to say. Allow me to skip topic again. Ha. At least i'm giving warning now. If not Colleen will say me again.
Well well well, I'm really excited about my attachment in Beijing. Wonder how my life would be over there~ A new chapter of my life.
CHEERZZZZ!!
Decided to post a pic i took 2 years ago Lol. Damn spastic!
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Sunday, August 13, 2006
YIPPIE!!!!
The cease-fire, between Israel and Lebanon, is scheduled to take effect at 8 a.m. local time on Monday!!!
HIP HIP HOORAY!!!
I really really hope all this fighting will stop! Yeah! Save lifes of the innocent!
If both countries become good friends, EVEN BETTER. Doubt that will happen though. But there's always a possibility!
WHOO HOO! * * * * *
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Before i start my post, let me give a unknown Mr. Comfort taxi driver a big HUG. Well. I was waiting for bus, then i was looking opposite, the driver came out of his car, and squatted down... I thought he's out of his mind to walk behind his car and tie his shoelaces~ Then he stood up with a kitten in his hands! OH MY GOD! Why on earth is that poor little kitty there?! Bless him for saving the kitten! He didn't even care that there were hell lots of cars behind him... ***HugzzzzzZZzzzzzzzZZZ!!!!***
Went out with Shu Fen and Colleen.. We were drinking tea in bugis.. and chatted for a long time. And our wild imaginations started when all our dreams came true.. It goes something like that..
10 years later~ HTM student 1: You know Colleen? She's an expert in sales and marketing! You go everywhere, everybody knows her!
HTM student 2: Really?! Oh you remember Shu Fen? She's the General Manager of the Intergrated Resort(IR) now! And she looked so pretty in the business suit!
HTM student 3: So cool! Then do you know Jessica? She married to a caucasian general manager of a luxurious hotel! And had many kids with him!
Colleen and shu fren was saying, "Ya high sex-drive.. Did it daily." I'm like "What-the-hell... Yar. I take it as daily exercise~" And colleen said, "Wah! You think i-Gallop ar?" Lol. I regreted answering her. Now u know who's the more 'imaginative' person... Btw, even if i do it daily... It ain't no wrong! Since he's MY husband~ Of cos we can! Ha!
I think Shufie has the highest sex drive! (Ha. I think she'll kill me after reading this!) Ha! Anyway, you're kinda cute in a way.. saying all the nonsense... You and colleen can stop saying that my future husband will be very fortunate.. I think your husband will need a stronger heart than mine.. Mr A****... tsk tsk tsk.. he's so damn lucky! Rite Shufie??????????
Colleen and Shu Fen have a sudden urge to go Chinatown and buy some hand-made accessories.. Went along with them... I didn't want to.. but was 'psychoed' by them.
Colleen wanted to try on a Qi Pao, since there's a possibility for us to wear it during attachement in the BeiJing hotel... I used to think Qi Pao looked werid.. But now i think it looked quite nice.
I went to take a pic.. trying to pose as some bimbotic 'cheena' girl.. haha... Looked kinda disgusting in that pose. Lol. I liked the cutting of the qi pao though~ No wonder Linda is so determined to go on diet! NOW~ Not only should i skip dinner, i should also skip lunch. Ha..
F.Y.I, Colleen looked cute in qi pao~ Ha.. Too bad Shu Fen is lazy to try.. If not she'll look nice too! Shufie.. you don't have to keep thinking about getting taller... Sometimes i wish i'm very tall, like 1.70m... or just be short and cute like you girls! Hmmm...
Okie.. let's back track. Met HUI TING on Friday!!! MY NUTTY BESTIE!!!!
Went to see fireworks~ We managed to find a extremely good position where we can have super clear view of the entire fireworks.
Oh my... It's fantastic. I didn't know it would be soOOOOOOoooOOO nice...
The fireworks is really very nice rite??? Tried taking a pic with her.. but it was just too dark! Arg!
Then we went Marche for dinner... As usual.. Ting always bring me to eat yummy food with her.. No wonder i can't lose as much weight i wanted to!!!
After Ting took this pic, i was horrified by my fat arms! Oh goodness... i should not only do my weekly skipping, but i should make an effort to do weekly (or daily) push-ups and sit-ups! ARH!!!!!!
Ting looked very adorable here! Like puppy! I didn't say you're a dog.. It's just the cuteness level. Ha!
