ha! I'm selected for overseas attachment in Beijing!!!
Really excited! It's time for me to see, stay, eat, smell, taste, play, work, sleep and feel somewhere else!! ha.. i'm talking rubbish...
yet, i'm afraid that my mum will be lonely at home....
i will miss my family and friends.. goodness...
i'm starting to miss them and having homesick now though i'm not even there yet..
maybe this is pre-travelling-overseas-without-seeing-your-loved-ones-for-a-period-of-time syndrome...
ok ok.. i'm talking more nonsense again...
just came back from camp...
it was fun! but to be honest.. it wasn't as great as i expected...
well, anyway, there's something i really need to change about myself...
sometimes i shouldn't be so pessimistic at times...
and even if i know and confrim that things will not turn out good, i shouldn't tell others about it...
ok ok.. its quite my fault...
let me share my story.
we're like trying to compete who can cheer the best among the 10 groups,
well honestly it is damn obvious that we sure cannot win the best...
our cheer is not powerful,
then there's this girl who's quite competitive, who wants to win,
so i'm like, "we sure won't win.. but we can try.. as long as we have fun can already.."
yar... some ppl agree with me that we sure won't win, but i really shouldn't tell her that we won't win, if she wants or hoped to win...
next time, pls tell me about it if i'm not encouraging okay??
i don't want to be someone who lower the morale of others...
i really feel guilty about it.. so at the end of the day,
when we had a debrief, everyone voice out their thoughts about the group...
it is the first time that i had a debrief that ppl voice out unhappiness... of cos there was also good ones.. but.. still... hai...
then we were like saying that we shouldn't just think about winning, should have fun,
but ppl also agree that ppl like winning, so we should work towards a goal and blah blah blah.. lots of other stuff...
also some other stuff on others... then i also say that sometimes, nobody wants to help in giving ideas and giving suggestions..
hmmm... but these are inevitable...
all camps will sure have such ppl. alright. forget about the unhappy stuff..
at least i know where my mistake lies..
usually all my other camps if we have any unhappy things, we voice out immediately, this group waited till the last minute when we are all going home, so it was really too late to do anything, cos the camp already ended...
one was even worse, most of us had conversation in chinese... so there's this girl who said she felt left out, and know what, she's a malay! and none of us knew!
for the past 3 days we didn't even know, but she also didn't tell us about it..
i'm not saying its entirely her fault.. but we didn't do it on purpose.. she really looked like chinese! Just like many ppl said i looked like malay.. so yar... we were all shocked.
we really felt guilty... but it's really too late, the camp is over.
hmmm.... next time, i will always check on how's other ppl's thoughts are every now and then..
but i don't think i'll join any camps next sem already.. haha..
but i'll definately still consider!
cos I LOVE CAMPS!
*What done is done.
It's over.
I will not give in to him once again.
Too late... Too bad.
I'm a stronger woman now! (haha. hope so!)
