Well well, to be honest, my day started alright.. then i sms someone.. he didn't reply. I was really depressed at first. And now, i'm glad he didn't reply. It gave me time to think thoroughly - is he really the one for me?? Well, the answer is NO.
I think i have to admit that i'm attracted to his looks at the beginning. He's not very handsome, i'm just attracted to guys who look "ang moh".. ha.. I miss the way he shower attention on me, dote on me. Really sweet... but think again, he did that to all girls. so i'm not any special girl or what. so what's the point?
I almost put down my pride, and wanted to date him out. If i did, he will be the first guy i ever date in my life.. Unless i know the guy likes me, if not, i don't date guys, i'll ask my frens to ask, and we'll go out as a group. I thought he might be someone different. so i thought of giving it a try. i was taking a hell long time to consider whether to ask him out, and i really felt relieved that i haven't. (Ha... now... i wonder who will be the first guy i'll date. hmmm.)
Why should he have such privilege when he's not a very good guy to begin with. He's a player. I'm just part of his game. Yet i fell into his trap. (Stupidly.) Knowing what kind of person he is, from the day i met him, i didn't stay strong and reject going out with him..
At least, again, i had some "lessons", on things that i haven't experienced till i met him.
The feeling being out of love really sux. Rite?? I bet lots of ppl gone through tat before... and mine is just some minor case... but we have to move on.. i know it'll take time... but seriously if you think that things doesn't work, why bother?
It's just wasting everbody's time. Well well well, everything's over. I even deleted the birthday reminder of his birthday that is coming this weekend. I will not even wish him 'Happy birthday'. Not worth it.
(Well, thanks to all the people who know what's going on, advicing me.. i really appreciated it.)
I just hope i won't meet this kind of people again.
