I am now in my cousin's house.
Sitting alone in the dark. With a small table lamp on the desk.
My cousins have grown up... though they are in the room now, and i'm alone in the living room, i already missed them.
Few years ago, when they knew i'm coming, they will be so excited and when i pressed the door-bell, they'll rush out to hug me and jumped all around me! It was really fun! I love them so so sooo much!
But for the last 3 - 4 time i came, they are glued to their online games and greeted me not more than a "Hi."
I said "Hi" back, and went to put my things in the room.
Things are different i guess... Ppl really change.
The only time when we are really close is when i take them out for breakfast or lunch.
Finally away from the computers! Finally i have attention from them!
If not, it'll be like last night, i fried an egg and ate with some rice, alone at this same dark corner with the table lamp. So miserable.
Lucky there's the channel 8, 9pm show, then 10pm project runway... if not i will be bored to death.
Well, i just came back from TP, for project meetings... i am not sure if i am asking too much from myself, worrying myself, or i really should get worried!
At first i aimed to complete at least 50% for the 3 projects, today we met up, and i realised we are far from it!! I guess we're not even close to 20% done!
I've so called 'resign' my post as the leader, and gave the post to the rest of my group mates, each being one leader for a subject. But today, one of the leader is sick, so we did almost nth of the subject.
I thought today's meeting would be useful, but it doesn't seem to be the case.
I was quite disappointed in fact. I am not sure if we're on the right track, or even if we are, the work done is really minimal...
or maybe i'm the only one who felt so... i always feel that work is not done 24 hours...
all the way till we hand up the project.
i hope i can do well for project, cos i'm not sure if i'm dumb or wat...
in poly, no matter how much i studied, my results turned out badly!
ARG!! I really REALLY hate it!!!!
ARRRRRRHHHHH!!!
Damn....... i hate to feel so down now...
i shall look forward for my camp tmr!
Where all my troubles will always go down the drain!!
I SIMPLY LOVE CAMPS!
