Well, life's been not bad so far...except i'm getting a little stress, (or maybe VERY stress due to a tiny problem which cause HUGE headache) I kept thinking should i quit the admin job i'm currently holding.Yeah, i only work on sunday, but have to continue it even when sch starts, cos i kinda promise my tuition teacher i will stay on even when sch start. yeah, her husband owns the tuition centre. but neva did i knew that her husband is kinda demanding. he's a nice man. that's true. but he expects a lot... which sometimes makes me feel he's so evil and nasty... especially when he raise his voice... which makes me wanna cry! but maybe he don't expects a lot, its just that me... or maybe its just he is....or maybe~~~~~ hai i dunno....~~~~~!!!
should i just quit. get the freedom i want. but along with the guilt that i kinda go back on my words.actually its not a promise. (and i'm sure this feeling won't last long. maybe situation is not as serious as i may think.the feeling will just come and go.) (i think) i just feel that its serious. cos when my tuition teacher say will i be able to work even when sch starts, i say can... but... its just that i don't really like the job now. its not really what i expected?i donno. how? how? how?
or should i just stay on. spend 8.5 hours every sunday which can be use for productive project work. i need time to rest and have fun too. and now my sunday is taken up?it might not affect my project work and studies at all.i can earn extra pocket money which i can spend and enjoy. buying things that i want. SHOPPING` or maybe this is just the start.. when i get the hang of it, maybe i would feel alright about staying.
my sis say, if i really cannot cope... just tell them due to some unforeseen circumstances i cannot seem to cope with my studies... blah blah blah... but the thing is, i wish i could cope! i mean i should learn how to juggle between work and studies. i should be able to manage time. cos i want to proof to myself that i can do it~but life is short, and i'm young, so why should i try this kind of thing.but yet i still feel like trying.(probably i'm really nuts)
but my results ain't that good.either i really am not hardworking. cos i slack a lot. but i also did a lot of work.or maybe i did do my work. just that i slack in between?but i did study. hai. i dunnoe. should i quit? or should i not?i am thinking about this all day long!and its driving me nuts soon..what should i do what should i do what should i do?HAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maybe an advice for myself~ the answer will be told, when the time comes.but when will it be?!(damn. i'm contradicting myself)
*sob sob. oh yeah. on my birthday on 1st oct. went to holland v. to have dinner.then went clarke quay. honestly. nth much in both places.
holland v. - guess i will not go there, unless i really wanna have an expensive romantic dinner.
clarke quay. hmm. most clubs... nah.. dun noe wat to do there. so crowded too. i think the only place where its quite fun is the one with the merlion. where i remember my poly clique went there and play some childhood games.. haha..however i enjoy the company from jemmie, hy and mig.thanks a lot.
should i quit my job?!Damn. i'm thinking about it AGAIN!
