Sometimes I wonder why some ppl can act so ‘good’ in front of you but say so many bad things about you (behind ur back). I dare the person to say it in front of my face. I regret knowing that person. It’s not as if we ended because of some big problem or because I hate him. It ended because I truly like him and want him to find the one he wants. Its not as if its easy to say “oh, lets just end.” Giving up a person is not easy. I guess everyone knows. Including the person I gave up, just because I want him to be happy. I regret caring for him, hoping that he gets enough sleep, hoping that I could do anything to make him feel better. But what did I get in return? Being hate because I care for him. Who makes ME hate him now? Her. Who keep making me give up. Her. Who said so much bad things about him. Making my impression changed. Her. I treat her as fren. But knowing so much so much about her.. It Hurts. Because my fren treat me this way. A fren that I found nice.(at first) Till now. Why? What have i done to her. I really dunnoe what should I do. Ignore her, scream at her? Pretend nth happened and treat her the way I used to? Damn.
(If only if its last time.. and if the person is here.. i know he would cheer me up.. because he truly cares... but just because i got no confidence to meet him... i lost him.) * * * * *
