To someone out there… every now and then I think of the past. Thinking how much things have changed. How different things are now. Thinking what could have been done to alter where we’re in now. We never contact each other anymore. I never hear from you anymore. Well, guess you also won’t be reading this anyway… but I just want to pour my feelings out… not able to tell you how I feel… I hate it when I care, yet you’ll never know. I hate it when I secretly helped you, yet I never show. I hate it when I wanted to tell you, yet I never told. I hate it when I think of you, yet I act like I never care. I missed the time when I’m sad, you’re there to make me smile. I missed the time when I’m happy, you’re there to share with me. I missed the time when I’m bored, your jokes made me laugh. I missed the time when I’m cold, your hands are there to keep me warm. I missed the time when I’m needed someone, your presence are always felt. I missed the time when I think of you, and know you’re thinking of me too. Even if things are going to change for the better. I wouldn’t dare to accept it again, cos I’m afraid to lose you again. There’s nothing I could do now cos you’re lost with someone else. But deep down there’s always a place where you belong that no one knows.You’ll never know. * * * * *
