Now is 6.30am… and I cannot get back to sleep as these thoughts come haunting me. I remembered once Rachel, Hui Ying and Jemmie (ha, sorry, brought up our past) didn’t trust me and we quarrelled badly… I was so hurt, so depressed. I couldn’t think about anything but them. Fine… call me a “brooder”, someone who broods over things tat bothers me… tat one time is enough. It was terrible. But after all things are cleared. And we’re now better frenz! I love u all!
But how bout in poly? Though its less than a year… Many things happened… I was hurt so many times that I almost got immune to it. I was overwhelmed by so many emotions when I found out the truth. Fuming, heartbreaking, taken aback, doubt, sad and confused. Sometimes, things doesn’t go the way u expected them to. When something goes wrong, he puts all blames on me, he thought I neva knew, many asked me to explain, and many asked me not to… I know I couldn’t explain. I wanted to cry. But I couldn’t. I don’t know how. I don’t know why. Don’t know what’s the reason to cry. Cos I know this misunderstanding would neva be solve. So I put a happy front, and keep all sadness down my heart Just for the person I like.
One asked me to find out the truth. I asked around. And realised. Things seemed not the way it is. I was wrong. Friends don’t do what they do. She’s unique, she’s funny, she’s a good accompany. But neva did I knew the things she do, till the day I found the truth. Many times, I pretend not to knew, just to be friends with her, cos a fren I truly liked. But as things got clearer, its hard to continue pretending. It’s difficult to forgive, its harder to forget.
I wished someone could help solve it all. Bring the days I once had. * * * * *
